To Seek a Newer World
In late December 2009, a long-standing friend banished me with "you're nothing but a bitter old man." It was a comic yet thundering surprise, rousing a need to defy augury: I must not let those words come true. I must seek a newer world. Renewal seemed best sought in song, so I posted an ad on Craigslist for "accompanist/arranger, my key." Somehow Bálint Sapszon noticed and responded, this project evolving from a happy compatibility-a wonderful surprise because in my younger years I could not find an accompanist whose touch felt right for me. I gave up singing for writing. Now, decades later, a joy: "When the singer is ready, the accompanist appears." ... The essence of the above was written in the early summer of 2010, when Bálint and I 'completed' our effort. It's now December 2013, and I'm humbled by the experience. I was not as ready as I imagined myself to be. My original plan was to offer the album as a demo, the first of a two-part album, but I soon deluded myself into thinking the partial release was more accomplished than it was. I still think the concept has merit, but my delivery needs a great deal more work, and if I'm lucky, I may still find the inner and outer resources to meet the challenge. Despite the disappointment, I've lately found myself thinking a radical thought: 'I'm the luckiest person alive.' Somehow I'm grateful for what I have, and every day I'm more aware of unexpected blessings that consistently come my way. I did not have that spirit four years ago, so in that sense, my album seems to have been a success. Thanks to everyone who gave my work a listen. I hope you and yours find the musical joy and inspiration you seek.