This album was professionally recorded in a different studio in NJ than the first three of Caryn's recorded efforts (Majestic Tranquility with Falling Stars; Running, Pacing & Learning to Crawl with Falling Stars; Angst, Love, Hate, Hurt with Frankenstein's Alibi.) Released in February of 2009, Caryn was working as a public school general music teacher and had completed her bachelors degree in music education the previous year in May. She was facing some harsh realities, mainly ones relating to growing up and being out of school and trying to make things happen for herself on her own. This album goes right along with that. As college was done and over and she was working, it was very difficult to try to maintain a steady band. However, she did not let this factor stand in her way and hinder her musical creativity. She decided to get a small group of friends together to do a few things on the album with her (one of which is Rup from her first band, Falling Stars), but mainly this album is her; she plays most of the instruments and sings lead on all four tracks. It is personal music that really shows off Caryn's growth as a musician if you've been following her recording career (and if you haven't, pick up the early albums! You won't be disappointed!). Track 1: Try starts off with a driving bass line, the guitar melody kicks in, and then with the entrance of the drums all hell breaks loose. It is a pounding, driving, demanding song that asks 'Why does money talk so loud? Why don't my parents seem as proud? And when did love turn into a game?' Track 2: Second Chance is Caryn bearing her soul after a heart wrenching breakup. Blaming herself at points 'You were looking for a sorry but I/ felt too sorry for myself' and him at others 'I wasn't prepared for your tragedy ride', the song is both poignant and relate-able, as well as heart felt. Sort of has a Counting Crows vibe to it. Track 3: The Pain that Strikes the Joy; again Caryn uses music to confront and deal with her emotions after a breakup. She relates the feeling of loneliness and missing someone 'Left your number by the phone/ called you up when I was feeling alone/ Stared at your picture, but you never came/ Nobody here left to blame', and she also comes to the realization that when your 'walls come tumbling down' you might have to stand up and 'do it by yourself.' Fair to note a Beatles influence in this song. Track 4: Oxidize is about losing it. Call it jealousy, frustration, perhaps even going insane; this is one friggin' angry song. She tells of how a lying and unfaithful boyfriend made her feel 'beaten, torn and slashed in two.' It has a very angry, aggressive sound, using only a few chords. It builds and builds to the end, in which Caryn envisions his present, toxic girlfriend wrapping herself around his neck, choking him to death: 'And before you realize/ or have time to oxidize/ the grip will turn too tight/ perhaps she'll leave you lifeless/ and without a goodbye/ creep away into the night.' Haunting.