Another Sort of Someone
This album is a true hodge podge. Where, when, and how the songs were recorded, when they were written - it's all over the map. What shines through despite the different answers for each song is Caryn's ability to speak truthfully in her song writing and deliver them with emotion. Each song offers great hooks. The album is spectacular, and if you listen to it in comparison with her previous 4 releases (Second Chance by Caryn Feder, Majestic Tranquility by Falling Stars, Running, Pacing & Learning to Crawl by Falling Stars, & Angst, Love, Hate, Hurt by Frankenstein's Alibi) you will get quite a sense of a process of musical growth. Track 1: Out Of My Head is the first ever ska song Caryn has professionally recorded. On this track she plays and sings every single thing you hear. Call her a Billy Corgan if you must (well, of course with more hair). There's electrical sounds employed that make it seem like she is speaking about being trapped in a Mario-like game; a game called love. And she keeps losing because the villain won't let up; ie. The ex won't get out of her head. This is also the first ever song you can hear Caryn playing trumpet on! This song was recorded in a Long Island, NY studio and was recorded to appear on this album. Track 2: My Hero (or not) was recorded with Frankenstein's Alibi bandmate Jenn Harris, who sings lead on this track. Jenn can also be heard singing lead on 'User' and 'Rude Awakening' off of Frankenstein's Alibi's Angst, Love, Hate, Hurt album. It was written when they were still in Frankenstein's Alibi together, probably all the way back in 2004-2005 school year. With some convincing, Caryn was able to save the song from oblivion and get Jenn in a studio in NJ (same one Caryn's album Second Chance was recorded in) with her to record it for this album. The song is about the betrayal and confusion felt when someone wants to be your friend out of nowhere after treating you like dirt. Track 3: This House Ain't A Home is a song of brokenness, emptiness and loneliness, and the only thing that seems to be sustaining the broken hero is their love for their significant other. The chorus pleads 'Please help me, I lost everything I own. These friends aren't real, this house ain't a home. I could die any second, oh, the way I'm feelin' now. Just let me hold you and know that you're alive. Feel your body as I quiver inside. 'Cause only you can save me now, only you can save me.' This was recorded in a studio in NJ. All the tracks are Caryn. It features a very cool instrumental break, almost reminiscent of old (good) Metallica. Heavy and melodic. Track 4: So I Say was recorded with a band that was known as Lunch Box Buddies that Caryn had during her Grad studies. Cassagnol Leonidas does some of the guitar and keyboard work heard, as does Alex Ashmun. They also sing background in the verses. The song was recorded in a studio in Long Island, NY. There are two different distinct feels presented in this song; an arpeggiated, weepy verse, and a groovy, danceable, upbeat chorus with some Janis Joplin soul. Turn this one up to 11. Track 5: You're Wed, I'm Dead is about being friends with someone you are madly in love with and not being able to tell them because they are seeing someone and it would also make things weird. The main character in this story acquaints their beloved's wedding day to their own death sentence; 'as you kiss your bride, I kiss my dreams goodbye.' It features a vocal duet and an excellent guitar solo by Alex Ashmun, and keyboard by Cassagnol Leonidas. This was also recorded in a studio in Long Island in the beginning of 2011. Track 6: Waves was tracked in Long Island, NY with Dave Dzurilla helping out with a little percussion and guitar work. This is the first ever song you can hear Caryn play violin on (wait for the end)! This is a concept song, kind of like Hector Berlioz's program music piece Symphonie Fantastique. The song itself is a giant wave, crescendoing and tastefully adding in instruments as it goes along. It describes a love so strong that the singer would rather let the waves of the ocean take them away than their beloved. Track 7: Save Me was not recorded in a studio. It was recorded on Caryn's cell phone in a small practice room at Caryn's grad school with Cassagnol Leonidas on piano. In studio, the rough recording was stylized and tweaked to give it the sound of an old vinyl cut that was 'saved' itself. In the chorus, the singer pleads, 'Save me, I don't want to leave you, please. Save me, I don't want to leave, please. Save me, I don't want to leave you, no. Save me. 'Cause I don't.... wanna die tonight.' This is perhaps Caryn's most heart breaking vocal performance since 'The Pain That Strikes The Joy' was first recorded. Track 8: Capsule To Oblivion is sung by Matthew Lowrey with Caryn on guitar and backup vocals. This was recorded on a tape recorded and converted in a NJ studio years later. It was written and recorded while Caryn was in her junior year of high school! She just always liked it and felt it should be heard. The song has a rap-rock Chili Pepper sort of charm to it. Track 9-12 are remixed & remastered from Caryn's 2009 release, Second Chance. Buy them both and catch the differences! Track 9 Try starts off with a driving bass line, the guitar melody kicks in, and then with the entrance of the drums all hell breaks loose. It is a pounding, driving, demanding song that asks 'Why does money talk so loud? Why don't my parents seem as proud? And when did love turn into a game?' Track 10: Second Chance is Caryn bearing her soul after a heart wrenching breakup. Blaming herself at points 'You were looking for a sorry but I/ felt too sorry for myself' and him at others 'I wasn't prepared for your tragedy ride', the song is both poignant and relate-able, as well as heart felt. Sort of has a Counting Crows vibe to it. Track 11: The Pain that Strikes the Joy; again Caryn uses music to confront and deal with her emotions after a breakup. She relates the feeling of loneliness and missing someone 'Left your number by the phone/ called you up when I was feeling alone/ Stared at your picture, but you never came/ Nobody here left to blame', and she also comes to the realization that when your 'walls come tumbling down' you might have to stand up and 'do it by yourself.' Fair to note a Beatles influence in this song. Track 12: Oxidize is about losing it. Call it jealousy, frustration, perhaps even going insane; this is one friggin' angry song. She tells of how a lying and unfaithful boyfriend made her feel 'beaten, torn and slashed in two.' It has a very angry, aggressive sound, using only a few chords. It builds and builds to the end, in which Caryn envisions his present, toxic girlfriend wrapping herself around his neck, choking him to death: 'And before you realize/ or have time to oxidize/ the grip will turn too tight/ perhaps she'll leave you lifeless/ and without a goodbye/ creep away into the night.' Haunting.