Peace of God
I was raised in a conservative Jewish home. When I was 13 years old, I was Bar Mitzvahed. (Yes, it's true, at the young age of 13, I became a man. NOT!) Through my early teenage years I got into Bodyboarding, playing guitar and photography, among other things. My high school years were a blur. I ditched school as much as possible to go Bodyboarding. At the age of 17, I got kicked out of high school for selling pot to an undercover school narc. Not good! This was definitely a wake up call. I went to a continuation school for a year then was able to graduate San Pedro High with my class of 1990. In 1992 I won my first professional Bodyboarding contest, beating out all of my Bodyboarding heros. Before receiving my awards, I vividly remember, my friend and fellow competitor Kyle Maligro telling me, and I quote, "Brian, right now you are gona feel like you're the man, you're gona feel invincible, people are going to want your autograph, you're gona feel on top of the world, but let me say one thing to you, this award, this feeling, this excitement will not last forever, but a life with Jesus will always be exciting and fulfilling." I remember telling Kyle "Dude, don't be trying to bum me out right now, you're just jealous" and I was very serious. Well, I got my award and life went on but I never forgot about that conversation. During my early years as a I Bodyboarder, I also started my own Metallica Cover band named "The Uninvited". We played everywhere. I became known as Mr. Metallica throughout the Bodyboarding community. In fact, I even thanked Metallica during an interview that was aired on national television. I remained on this "path" for some time. It was all about me. I was self centered, had an anger issue, lied a lot and basically wanted what ever this world would offer me. Then on a warm summer night in 1995, I came to realize, through a pretty freaky experience, that there is such thing as a spiritual world. It's alive and I had been oblivious to it for the first 24 years of my life. I have always been a "what I see is what I get kind of guy", but this night really got my attention. Basically, what happened, was that I saw things, with my own sober eyes, that my natural mind could not grasp. Within a 10 minute period, I saw a dark shadow move over and through my bedroom. It then settled on my chest which made it really difficult for me to breathe. I jumped up and out of my room and walked briskly to the living room of my parents house. Then, just moments later, I had my friends, who were also in my room, tell me that they felt something dark in my room. Just a few minutes after this, I witnessed one of my friends go through an intense battle as if being tormented by darkness itself. It was very freaky and I was not into it at all. A few months later I found myself at a friends church in Washington State hearing a pastor say that "all of us have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God". I remember saying "God, if this is all real, and I have sinned against you, then show me you are real and and that all this stuff that is happening is because you are trying to get my attention." Well, while visiting Hawaii for a Bodyboarding contest, God did just that. I remember trying to read a Bible that my friends mom gave me and I just didn't get it at all. It looked like Japanese writing to me. I couldn't understand a thing. Then it happened. I was sitting in semi-dark room in Hawaii trying to read this book, I read a sub title that said "Jesus is the light of the world", right then the clouds outside parted and the sunlight shone in on me in a very warm and comforting way. I looked up only to see a slight hole in the cloud where the sun had broke through, I looked back down to the Bible and my eyes read these words "Jesus is the light of the world". I felt a wave of unexplainable peace fill my mind and I just sat there and took it all in. It really was amazing. Shortly after this I believe God began to surround me with Christians and people that began to teach me how to pray and read the Bible. For the next two years of my life I had the opportunity and privilege to travel the world and room with the most on-fire Christian Bodyboarders on the face of this planet. And guess what, one of them happened to be Kyle Maligro. Coincidence? I think not! So from that point on, God has done so many wonderful things in my life. He has shown me that He is "The Way, The Truth, and The Life". He has shown me that no matter what I have done, no mater how I have acted or what I have thought, His love for me has never changed. The Bible tells me that God's love for me out numbers all the grains of sand. That's a lot of sand! That's not just the sand on the beach or under the sea, but think about all of the deserts too! WOW! Now that I am beginning to have a better understanding of God's great love for me, I feel strengthened to be the person who God has created me to be. Every day I am learning more and more the purpose for my existence here on this planet. I am no longer searching to find the "right religion" or "experience" because I have found it in knowing Jesus. But what's more wonderful that all these great things God has done and shown me is the great peace that I now have. The Bible says that "the Peace of God which transcends your understanding will guard your heart and mind in Jesus Christ". This peace my friends is the peace that has caused me to write every song on this CD and type every word in my booklet and web page. It's God's peace that has gently guided me away from playing Metallica songs to worship songs. God's love has given me a calm heart, a strong heart, a heart filled with the Peace of God.