End of the Beginning
Some journeys take longer than others. This album details my journey with a few added twists. What it was like, what happened and what it's like now. The gift of desperation is when we first experienced it is not seen as a gift at all, it is a little like visiting hell, 'dark nights awakenings' and it feels like no one around you has ever experienced what you're experiencing, but without this 'reaching bottom' change might never come. There is something beautiful about change and growth after we get through it, but at the time it is almost unbearably painful.However that event or those events become the cornerstone or the key to change and for me when I 'came to'. Surrender is not something that comes easily to most people, and that includes me. Reaching out to that 'power greater than ourselves' in my case at that time, the God of my misunderstanding, brought me to my knees. When I had nowhere else to go I prayed returned to my faith tradition and who would have ever guessed that the answer to my prayers would be fellowship. I was no longer alone and the healing could start. It usually has been a much slower process than I would like. But that first step was truly 'the end of the beginning'. I had to change and I needed help. I needed to find the God of my understanding and I could not do this alone. The process for me involves healing, by uncovering my errors or sins, making amends, prayer and meditation. I will never 'arrive' at my final destination in this world; it is always a process of spiritual growth. God has a sense of humor. I have engaged in many adventures and mischief along the paths placed before me.I have found love in unlikely places. I have seen and continue to see miracles, like my husband Joe. He naturally has his own faith journey. God has blessed us with children who God loaned to use for a relatively short time. They have their own paths, it is not my path and sometimes it is hard to stay out of the way. Joy can be found watching others grow. God, I believe wants use to serve others.My attitude often needs adjustment so that I can be of service. Sometimes I find myself in remarkable situations and complain to God that I don't want to do things but I believe he understands that prayer well. He has blessed me with many signs along the way & I continue to ask for them. If I want to keep what I have I have to give it away and some of those who receive the gift drift away. This can be a sad experience but God's arms are always open for them to 'come back home'. Blessings Regina Ask for a Sign.